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Beauty
First of all I hope you all had a great Christmas and a happy new year.
You look at yourself in the morning, before and after you have showered, in puddles, in the mirror and on the windows. You see yourself everywhere. You can't escape and you can't escape from the word: beauty.People talk about beauty everyday. We have this picture in our heads that shows us what beauty is and how to look beautiful.
Thin and tall, clear cheekbones, beautiful smile, big eyes and big breasts. Like models in magazines and actors on TV.
If we look at these two pictures there are a big difference:
Why do we have to be so perfect and flawless? We are just humans and we don't need to pretend we're something that we are not. I think the mainkey to the problem is the people we are surrounded by.
If they judge us on the outside we do it yourselves. We have to find the people that loves us as we are and not how we look. We also have to destroy the ideal body.
“Sometimes people are beautiful.
Not in looks.Not in what they say.
Just in what they are.”
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Alone home - Saturday
Strong, funny, gentle, kind, cute smile, beautiful eyes. A guy who will stick around me for a long time and hold around me at night. Carry me around like a princess. Be a friend at the same time. Never too jealous.Spontaneous. Kiss me in the rain. Dance with me at the streets. Hand my hand. That is want I want. Too much to ask. I'm only 16 and I know that I have plenty of time to find that guy.
You see cute couples everywhere at tumblr. I just feel a feeling of missing something.
“You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.” _________________________________________________________
He's in my dreams
He appears in almost every dream of mine. I see his face. I can almost touch him. The dreams is nightmares to me because when I wake up he's gone. I am mad, crazy or nuts.
I want to talk with him every day but I can't. I want to write to him every day but he would probably think that I was annoying. He don't write to me ever - if I what to write with him, I have to start the conversation. I ask questions and he replies shortly.
I want to talk with him every day but I can't. I want to write to him every day but he would probably think that I was annoying. He don't write to me ever - if I what to write with him, I have to start the conversation. I ask questions and he replies shortly.
It's been a lot of months since I met him and he has been in my mind ever since. I just.. I am in love.
“You can't force love, I realized. It's there or it isn't. If it's not
there, you've got to be able to admit it. If it is there, you've got to do
whatever it takes to protect the ones you love.”
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Love among us
Even if I don't have the love of my life, that doesn't mean that other people can't find love.
I saw my older brother look at a girl the way a lovelook should look like. I didn't know her. I could see in his eyes, that he was in love with this strange and unknown girl. The his heart where beating harder and stronger for her. The way he hold her hand, and how he cared for her. The he was brighter, he shined and had this big smile in her company.
Envy came. I was jealous, I am jealous. I want to find that love too. Be happy with a another person.
Well.. That it what everyone seeks. True love.
But I wonder if there are such thing as true love.
Well.. That it what everyone seeks. True love.
But I wonder if there are such thing as true love.
There are 7,200,000,000 people in the world. And that's a lot! So the half of this big number is men in all ages.
Out of this number are there 16,3% from the age 15-24. So is it possible that there is no guy for me out there somewhere, when the love of my life, don't love me back?
Out of this number are there 16,3% from the age 15-24. So is it possible that there is no guy for me out there somewhere, when the love of my life, don't love me back?
“The world is a book and those who do not travel read only one page.”
I have to be honest. I can't stop thinking about him. He knows how I feel and he understands. He hasn't said that he does'en feel the same way, but maybe it's just because he don't wanna break my heart. I know deep inside, that he doesn't feel the same as I.
He said that he looked like a famous actor, and when I see movies with this actor, I can't stop feeling empty. I dream about him almost every night.
I can't stop looking on the 'straw-rose' that he gave me to my birthday.
“Turn your wounds into wisdom.”
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Save baby birds
I was talking with a very good friend the other day. He said that I was a person who constantly wanted to save baby birds (a metaphor). That I want to save everyone from misery. I can't see the bad thing in it. I just
want everyone to feel happiness. Developing people. But somehow.. it's not my job, and I have to think on myself sometimes.
want everyone to feel happiness. Developing people. But somehow.. it's not my job, and I have to think on myself sometimes.
“Sometimes you wake up. Sometimes the fall kills you. And sometimes, when you fall, you fly.”
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I was in school today - like always! I talked with some friends, and said that I was "in love" with a guy from Bulgaria. They made fun of it and said that it was never going to happen. Well.. That's okay, I know that they are right, but I just can't stop dreaming. I wish I could live in a fairy tale, but I don't. You see that red spot on my picture - maybe it's him and his girlfriend, and I'm the one alone. I just can't stop thinking of him, I can't stop loving him. He is my dream. He is that guy I want to know best. ♥ I see him again someday, I just know.
“You only live once, but if you do it right, once is enough.”
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Weight
We all know how it is to live in a world with rules.Girls like me hate your bodies. We have to be perfect, beautiful and skinny. So I have now started on my own program. To be stronger and maybe lose some weight. I dream of becoming a model and be notice - but it's just a dream. (If you want me to update on my training just write to me).
I don't know why we have to be perfect. I think all are beautiful and special inside, we don't need to look like thin models. The most important thing is to be happy with yourself.
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| An old picture of me with true words. |
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Love
As you may see, I have been in Bulgaria. I met some wonderful people, and I fell in love with a sweet guy.I cried the way home, I didn't want too leave my life there. Now I have this problem. I can't stop thinking of him. He doesn't know how I feel, because I am sure that he doesn't feel the same way as I. We don't write to each other so often. Now I'm just waiting that I have finished studying (in three years), so I can travel to Bulgaria again. He may finds love, but he will always be my dream guy. ♥
Do you feel the same way with someone? Please write to me, I want to hear your story.
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